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"When I was living down in florida, I really felt as though I had hit rock bottom. The ocd was killing me. Id spend days and even weeks inside never coming out not even to get the mail. Id only go out when the booze was gone and I had to get more. I was drinking alot when ever I was awake and that contributed to me having alot of migraines. Alot of people claim to suffer from them and that term is loosely thrown around and confused with just a really bad head ache. I know the difference and would choose a normal head ache over a migraine any day. While down there I was dealing with stage four migraines which are the worst. My hands and lips would go numb, Id go blind only seeing test patterns and snow. The pain was beyond words. When these things would come on Id cry and cry knowing I was going to spend the next three or so days in bed. This was before I discovered imatrex. Confusion was another problem sometimes and thats what scared me the most. I read a book once and the term "skull splitting head ache" was used and this was something I could definitely heed. When I got sick my brain felt like it was swelling against my skull, pushing outward and sometimes the pain and pounding were so intense that it literally felt like my skull was going to crack open. I have a fear of horses, because Im afraid of getting kicked in the head (my fear of brain damage). So I placed a horse smashing my skull at the top of the drawing leaving his leg inside to show the force it has. His tail is a make shift bang. Its a stallion, and coming from his phallus appears to be a line of baby fetus's signifying rebirth before they enter into an egg/ball and they come out as something else showing a chance of reincarnation. My tounge is hanging out because I tend to vomit when I get sick. In front of my face is an apple split because during that time I had a strong nose and Id always smell apples before getting sick for some reason. One of my eyes is in the form of a ball which is broken in half signifying the pain again.

"This picture turned out shitty. Its more detail. Notice my eye and the tube like thing in the corner of it. When I was young I damaged my eye pretty bad and had to have atleast five operations. I damaged my tear duct and to fix it they had to run a tube through through my sinus's and it was tied off in my nose. It was really visible and I had to deal with it for about two years. It was devastating to me because I had just started jr high. The girl in the tub has a clothes pin for a head because old wooden clothes pins have always reminded me of motherhood for some reason. Thats also my dog blue peeping out next to a tree that gives thanks to dali."

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